lovely adik...

mama said...adik got a job..as a clerk in a company..im not sure which the company is it..but what i know..untie Naimah..the person who are responsible on this..she help my sis find the job..after she heard from my mum..that adik have been work as housekeeper in a private hospital..actually..it help her to get some knowledge and experience how to survive life without someone to lend a hand..actually..im very proud of her because she was very young..( not really young she 17years old act )..because i only have her as my sister..she always share her problem with me..about her feeling..her study..last month when im going back to home town..when i see her..i said..how big my sis now..there is long time not see her..now..i getting confuse where i will send my sister to continue her future study..i only just want her to have better future..if not me and my brother...who else want to take care of her right??my parent already tired to think about their children..so its the time for me and my bro to take hand over her..the only sister that we have..i remember..before im going home..i'll buy something for her and my mum..she always asking me to buy her a necklace..and also perfume..huh!she might be thinking that her sister ( Me ) have a lots of money...hehhehe...what i know...she very hardworking person..always clean up our house for everyday..but when i came back..she become a lazy..u know why??she said i can do it..ermmm...my little sister..when i have a called from mama..she always told me adik have been diet to maintain her body..hahhah..but when the time i arrived at home..she lost her diet..when i eat..she joined me.. when i have my drink..she also joined me..because she mizz me so much..i only spent time about 2-3 weeks at home then back to college..thats why...whatever looks like my sis..she always be my sis..and i love her so much..my lovely sis...NUR ATIQAH RAMLEE!

mama..abah...

i miss that person so much..just wait the time..i'll coming home and never left u anymore...mama...the person who i care n love much..she always taking care of me..she also be a good fren even sometimes she scolded me..hehhe..mama..Mrs Norlela HJ Aneh...who was born on 25 jun 1963...there's only a day before her 46th birthdays...dis year..same with the other years...i and my brother are not together to celebrate her birthday...because we are far from our family..i just want her to know that her son and her daughter never forget her and how much we care of her...like the other years...even we are not there..we are not forget to sending her birthday card..abah..Mr Ramlee Salleh...the husband of mrs norlela...who was born on 25 july 1964...only a year and a month young from his beloved wife..hehehe...it so romantic...they married on 5 april 1988 in the same date of my birthday..how lucky i am...my mum said...she delivered me during their 3th anniversary...hahaha..that's why...they love me much...huhuh..im glad to be their daughter..and i've promise myself to not make them cry for my failures..but make them cry for my success...amiin

waiting...and will keep waiting...

Today…almost a month he left me…im try 2 forget him…but I can’t even it tried it..day by day..it become worse to me…why??actually I miss him so much…I can lied to my fren about my feeling..but I can’t lied my own feeling..that I love and miss him so much…until now…I still remember him..what suppose I to do forget him??i dun want he lost from my mind..and I always pray that he will keep inside my mind for the rest of my life…and I hope he will do so..there is a lots of memories between me and him..i cant stop from thinking him…I always pretend that I already forget him in front of my fren..but actually..i miss him so much..now..i lost him..not only in my life..i’ve tried contacted him but..i guess he already change his number to avoid me from contact him..im still wait for him…I can’t throw him out from my life…I’ve promise to myself for not forget him…and I always waiting for him…how can I forget him??although we have same birth sign on our right arm…that was a accidently happen without we know before we starting the relationship..we only know after we hang out together..i saw his first then I told him about mine..that’s so sweet to remember…I still remember..he request me to made two sampan kertas when I came back to Sabah in the early of our relation which is in May..he ask me to wrote down his name inside the sampan and my name inside the other sampan then leave them to across the river..actually I wrote our name inside the both of the sampan…so that’s mean..the sampan and also another sampan have both name…I made it special for him..the reason why he ask me to made it…only to know which sampan will be the first across the river..to know how much I love him…that is so sweet right??but I put our name inside the both of the sampan..with the meaning..i will always with him..and never left him behind…it’s the intro in our relation..i gave him a simple bufday card..and wrote down how lucky I am to have him..and thank him bcoz choosing me to be his soulmate...I still remember when he talked with my lovely mak long and tell her how much he love me…and promise to taking good of me..there is a lots of memories about us..and I can’t simply forget him just like that..i share my feeling to make he know..how much I care n love him… and im still wait…and wait!

ketenangan...

last nite...is the nite where i got the opportunity to tell him what i have keep inside my heart...4 a month since our relation is over..he pretend like nothing happen between he and me...he never spent time even only 5minutes 4 me to tell him what i felt..and i guees he afraid to face up the reality..he break me up..then when i asked him to tell me the truth...he never tell me and refuse to stop contact me..i felt like so stupid..it was wonderful moment when i know him a year ago...he love me...he taking care of me...and he always give me advise...but now??im only a doll 4 him..huhuhuh...but in the end...i got what i want..what r so funny when u need to be someone else only to know the truth...but luckily..i got what i want..im nothing 4 him..i spent a year with him..but he told sisca (actually me) that he never fall in love for 4years since his late gf was passed away in an accident...huh!only GOD know what i felt that time...thank to GOD...now..i dont have any feeling to a person name...GUY!!!

19 jun 2009

arini rasanya mcm hari yg gelap untuk ak..ak ingatkan pas setahun lamanya..
dia msh tunggu ak..tapi aku salah.rupa2nya...dia da ada pengganti ak..napa baru arini ak tahu??mmg ak cuma sayang dia sbgai kawan..tp ak mengharapkan dia msh syg ak mcm dlu..tamak ka aku??dia sepatutnya hidup bahagia dari dlu lg..cuma aku mencarinya kembali selepas ak putus dgn insan yg membuatkan ak meninggalkannya setahun dlu...betapa ruginya ak..yang kukejar xdapat..yang kugendong berciciran..kini dia dalam di lema...aku xminta dia meninggalkan orang yang mampu buat dia lupakan ak...cuma aku betul2 terkilan..ak da kehilangan orang yang ak sayang dalam tempoh setahun ni...malah yang sedihnya..aku baru tahu arini..selama stgh tahun..sahabatku menyimpan rahsia dr pengetahuanku...teman yang pernah rapat n akhirnya menjadi musuhku selama ini..adalah sahabat dnia dan akhiratku...tidak kusangka..aku ingatkan dia yang membuatkan family kekasihku membenciku sehingga meminta dia meninggalkan aku..YA ALLAH..betapa berdosanya ak pada sahabatku...hanya kerana seorang lelaki yang blm byk yang kutahu tentang hati budinya....aku sanggup bermusuhan dengan sahabatku sendiri..kini...seseorang yang pernah aku sayang sebelum ini..yang menjadi kekasihku sebelum dia...telah meninggalkan aku dengan pesanan..."...jadilah seorang yang matang...dan fahamilah keadaan saya...sebagaimana awk boleh meninggalkan saya kerana seorang lelaki yang awk blm kenal hati budinya...terimala hakikat...doakan kebahagiaan saya..."terasa macam nak mati bila aku mendengar kata2 itu..terlalu mendalam...YA ALLAH...hanya Engkau yang mengetahui di sebalik kejadian yang menimpa diriku...cuma..aku masih belum kuat utuk lalui suma ini..suma terjadi dengan terlalu pantas..alangkah bagusnya klu aku dapat mengundurkan masa dan memperbaiki segalanya...hakikatnya ia adalah mustahil..ak redha dengan suma ini..walaupun aku masih belum dapat menerima sepenuhya..esok adalah bufdaynya..hanya doa yang dapat aku berikan kepadanya..semoga dia akan bahagia bersama insan yang mampu membuatkan dia berjaya melupai diriku....